twenties to thirty

Yesterday I wore a purple dress and so coincident that my colleague wore purple baju melayu too. Hmm! dont like the purple clash. It is way too quiet in my office, no music is allowed, can u imagine that? Well, not exactly no music, maybe to the volume that ant can hears it. My lady boss just don't like it. Working here is just fine, not so busy for me. Sometimes, I rather go lunch alone. A vegetarian, two ladies trying to lose weight by eating vege only, another colleague who always go lunch late, what can I expect? My ex-colleagues said that they can never eat lunch alone, it is so pathetic. But for me, it is alright coz I can choose whatever I like but I definitely won't go movie alone. I always have the urge to do that, but....it's pathetic. Lol.

Few days ago the radio DJs was talking bout turning from twenties to thirty, what it means to guy and girl. 8 more years to go I am turning 30. It makes me think where will I be and what I can achieve in 8 years time. Will I own a car, a house, at the peak of my career? or married to a rich guy and just stay at home? Haha. Probably at that time I already clearly know what I want in life. For now, I seem a bit directionless what I want to do. Anyway, my violin exam is less than 4 months from now. It's time to gear up!

from tea bag to finished up tea. Cute!

step in step out

I dunno whether I had made the wrong decision to ask for early release for internship and work permanently in another company. I couldn't understand the silly policy taylors has and because of this i have to delay my graduation for 4 months! *cut the long story* More worse, I couldn't graduate with my classmates..i can't imagine if I am the only tourism student turn out for the convocation. Argh. Anyway, it is too late for me to realize how GOOD taylors is. I just have to live with my decision.

So happen that I handed over my job to a new intern in old company and the next day my new colleague handed over her things to me, it was her last day. The new intern called me today to ask bout previous enquiry. I told her to ask anything before I leave, and how the hell she got my number! I wonder I leave anything in the old company, I was there for a month but I don't think I did a great job.

I am too optimist towards event. For now, I became directionless as I want typical 9 to 5 job at the same time i desire a challenging job. For Malaysians, it is hard to find a clear cut between work and personal time. Event basically is a 24-hour job, a guy once told me, he has seen so many event ppl and none of them is committed to any relationship. To me, it is a job that sacrifices a lot. Even my current job is rotating to hold a 24-hour careline in case any urgent amendment to made. It is all about customer service.

i saw smtg not suppose to see

today in the bus, a young chinese guy standing right in front of me with his shirt unbutton (the top few)..it is just unbearable for me..oh gosh, dahlah his body so lembik, some more wanna show off? how can someone just "exposed" his nipples publicly like this..the worse thing is, i cant look straight in front..

argh..disgusting..i wonder is this the reason i didnt have lunch today..

same goes some girls who like to show off their butt cleavage..it is not sexy at all to me..

awesome sleeping video! the bed-hogger...

Sun been down for days
A pretty flower in a vase
A slipper by the fireplace
A cello lying in its case

Soon she’s down the stairs
Her morning elegance she, wears
The sound of water makes her dream
Awoken by a cloud of steam
She pours a daydream in a cup
A spoon of sugar sweetens up

And she fights for her life as she puts on her coat
And she fights for her life on the train
She looks at the rain as it pours
And she fights for her life as she goes in a store
With a thought she has caught by a thread
She pays for the bread and she goes
Nobody knows

Sun been down for days
A winter melody she plays
The thunder makes her contemplate
She hears a noise behind the gate
Perhaps a letter with a dove
Perhaps a stranger she could love

And she fights for her life as she puts on her coat
And she fights for her life on the train
She looks at the rain as it pours
And she fights for her life as she goes in a store
With a thought she has caught by a thread
She pays for the bread and she goes
Nobody knows
Nobody knows

And she fights for her life as she puts on her coat
And she fights for her life on the train
She looks at the rain as it pours
And she fights for her life as she goes in a store
Where the people are pleasantly strange
And counting the change as she goes
Nobody knows
Nobody knows
Nobody knows

hide and seek

很讨厌没有自信的我，他给我的安全感时高是低，但我明白他已做到最好。

早阵子在网上看过一个quote ：

someone doesn't love you the way you want them to,
doesn't mean they don’t love you with all they have.

承诺，对我来说是很沉重的字眼。

越来越多的承诺反而让我有点退缩，总是担心如果以后有什么变化，我是否能够坦然接受？


幸福，是一个机会，如果没有在对的时间把握它，好好地珍惜，而是成天怀着怀疑的心，
那么它就会悄悄地溜走。

bonjour et au revoir

Finally i'm back from France. The trip was fine but it was kinda rush, not to mention I have to pull my heavy luggage many times to the bus or train station. Only 2 free and easy days to explore the Paris city and it was raining on the first day.

The entrance of the uni.

The main campus is in Toulouse, this is the branch of the tourism school. The scenery is nice because of its surrounded mountains, but i think it will be vy boring to stay there for long term.

My team Grab 'N' Go in the management game.
Even though we didn't win the game, but at least we have the Best Designed Poster!

In fact there are many Chinese food outlets in France. This is a random Chinese restaurant in Toulouse. The different dishes are displayed like economy rice but the difference is that they are weighted and heat up before it is served.

We went to Andorra (Spain border) before heading to Toulouse. It is a nice ski place but didn't get the chance to take the gondola up. It was -7 degree and we were walking around outside, shopping and playing snow. Haha.

Arc de Triomphe is at the end of Champs-Elysees (the branded shopping street), LV store is just right at the corner. I was too tired to climb up there after the long walk the whole day. Can u imagine to visit all the must see attractions in Paris in 1 single day?

the entrance ticket to the Eiffel Tower
It was cheaper than i thought. Instead of the top floor, i bought the second floor ticket instead.

the amazing tower
It was chilly and windy up there. A round viewing deck, simple cafe and souvenir shops, nothing much to explore. i think there is a small post office.


Moulin Rouge
It is very convenient to move around by Metro in Paris.
The first time we looked at the map, it is so confusing with 14 different color lines.
Pretty reasonable price, mobilis (day pass) with 5.8 euro.


France is nice but i missed home already in the second week. It was a quick hi & bye to Paris, perhaps next time i would come again, with more leisure time to enjoy, visit the vineyard (not in paris but southern France), eating, shopping and exploring.

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who doesn't face failure before?

who didn't make a mistake?

if we give different responses the outcome is really a big difference

I'm curious... who is really the victim right now

Am i really the problem maker or someone who just want some peace

my patience level is really critical right now

don't i deserve some sympathy and support for what i have been trying hard for? instead of throwing the stones into the well...

this moment, i suddenly realize that small decision making becomes so crucial that it will affect moving on my life..mayb not immediate, but eventually..i afraid of stepping the wrong path but there's no point regretting for what had happened..am i suppose to proceed to do things that against my own nature?